Source: Livejournal

Published: 22 March 2011

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HI!

we’re back inside the studio. literally, inside of it. and so far, it couldn’t be any better! day #2 and we’re nearly finished tracking the whole 1st song musically… tonight it’ll be my turn to crank out some SICK VOXXXXX. i’m just a little excited. like clockwork, my allergies are ridiculous right now and my vocal cords are being total jerks. it’s alright though cause i fed them some watermelon juice and kale earlier. i could tell that made ‘em smile. ew, look at me talking about my insides like they’re people. it’s like when guys name their weiners. just no.

well, i just figured i’d give you guys an update on where we’re at with the songs, life in general, and also tell you how amazing the movie Paul is. (it’s amazing). (kristen wiig is so funny). that’s really all i have to say about Paul. as far as music goes, we’re hoping to record 3 songs while we’re out here in California. the original plan was to record just 2 but seeing as though we’re moving pretty quickly, we may get luckier than that. i guess we’ll let you know when we figure it out! being out here is totally inspiring though. i remember when we showed up for the first time 2 years ago. within the first hour of actually pulling up to Rob’s we were already working on “Careful”. this place just has an electricity for us. and honestly, all it is is a studio inside of a garage. i mean, it’s a nice garage but… hey.

i guess the only thing we can say that won’t have you completely stoked out of your skull is that we are rethinking the idea of releasing these songs in EP form. for a few reasons which, of course, will be explained. we’ve obviously been through a hell of a lot in the past however many months it’s been… so it probably won’t come as any surprise to you when i say that i’ve written a lot of lyrics having to do with the whole situation. one you’ve already heard, (“in the mourning”) and quite a few others, some of which would never be paramore songs but were more just my way of venting and getting over everything. the 2nd song we’re recording and the 3rd one that we’re hoping to get done also have the same subject matter. and really, we just don’t want to put out a full product that sounds like a concept record about yet another difficult period in our bands life. it really is time to move on. with that being said, we want to give you all some new music. honestly, we want to give ourselves some new music too. geeeezzzz. so we’re working out how exactly to release everything… but so far it just seems like we spoke a little too soon about the whole EP thing. sorry :/ we were kind of excited. you will still be getting new songs though! and we think you guys are gonna really like them.

hopefully the whole thing makes sense. if not, i guess i could try to explain it in non-hayley-rambling-forever form, which would probably go like this: shit happens. if we put out another full product about our band woes then this will just keep going on forever and ever. after we put out the few songs that we’re recording, we never want to talk about it again. not in interviews, not in songs, nothing.

phew. that felt good!

now that we’re past the serious business can i just say that i’m SO freaking proud of the dudes. taylor has clearly had a lot on his plate getting ready for this little series of songs we’re recording. killing the drums, writing great guitar parts; etc. jeremy has this insane bass tone that he and riley (bass tech to the stars, also of Conditions fame) have been working on. working together has been good, you know? i feel inspired and motivated by all the changes we’ve gone through. and the friendships between the 3 of us feel like they’ve  been dusted off, new again. i’m proud of what i’ve written lyrically – even though it’s not something i want to harp on forever. i feel like it’s the stepping stone, though, to wherever it is that we’re going next. that in itself is so exciting it literally hurts. the year ahead of us couldn’t possibly be anything less than incredible.

and lastly, i think i just need to brace myself. from here and now until whatever really happens next for us… i can feel that we’re on the brink of so much growth. for myself, personally, i just know i’m gonna look back a year from now and realize all that i’ve learned. but that’s enough about me, do you feel it too?

think it’s time to eat. i can hear the guys getting excited about something, so it’s either food, girls, or someone farted.

L O L

love you guys so much,
hayley

ps, didn’t proofread this so i’m sorry if there’s a ton of mistakes. (besides the usual non-capitalization thing)

Source: Livejournal

Published: 5th April 2011

Hey everybody
today, let’s dive into the discussion of sexuality! yeah yeah, i wanna talk about the cosmo cover. it’s a little more than a big deal to me. and you know what? i’m really excited about it. to the general public, cosmo magazine is either a) a woman’s obsession or b) a woman’s demise — honestly, either of the two options equal out to be the same damn thing! the media clearly has our attention. it’s easy to let all the images of all these godlike looking women whisper to us how we think we’re supposed to look. it’s like “here look at my BOOBS! don’t you wish you had these?” “more guys will like you if you do it THIS WAY!” “get this figure” blah blah blah spend all your time, energy, and money on becoming the world’s idea of ”sexy”… and you know what? it’s never gonna change. as much as i tell myself i don’t care and i wear whatever i want… there will always be those moments when i’m at the check out line at target and i see some gorgeous person on the cover of any ol rag… and i’m like “ugh, is that how it’s gotta be!?” only to realize that… next month, that girl on the cover is gonna be me.

WHAT A HYPOCRITE RIGHT?!?!

noooo. here’s the thing. my #1 goal when the band began was to make myself invisible. not only did i not want to be the focal point, i wanted to be UNSEEN! and honestly, it never made a difference. i’ve turned down a lot of magazine covers. i specifically remember turning down Blender mag when i turned 19. and you know what? no one ever knew. it never made people focus on me any less. and it never mattered. so this time i’m taking a different approach. all 3 of us in Paramore have our own roles. and finally i will accept mine. i’m going to be okay with being a “powerful female”. and if that’s what it is… i’m going to use that role to make a difference.
here’s the plan. here’s my course of action. i WILL be myself. i WILL grow up. and i most definitely WILL find the time in my own life to be SEXY if i feel like it. who wrote the rules? who said that a girl that lives in this same tshirt and jeans nearly every day won’t wanna wear pumps and a short skirt tomorrow? the heart that’s underneath the clothes is still the same. because to me, it’s not about using sex as a weapon. it’s about how i feel. somedays i straight up feel like wearing sweats. other days, more confident days.. i’m like… DUDE WHO NEEDS CLOTHES!? ok well, i’m not that extreme but hopefully you see my point. if you are a girl, i think you’ll understand all of these words just fine. you know those mornings you get out of the shower and you’re drying your hair in your underwearsss and you realize you finally don’t care that you have that scar on your leg? or that your skin is so pale that sometimes in bad light you can see your veins? … or when your skin keeps breaking out and you’re like “today, i simply do not give a f***!” those are the liberated moments that i try to hold on to. and i’m hoping by seeing my crazy mug on a magazine cover… some girl who’s having a not particularly liberated day will think to herself that the MAY cover looks just a little different than the usual cosmo cover and hopefully they can even be inspired. no, i don’t think i’m some kind of saving grace that’s going to change the magazine world and the lies that we believe in the headlines every day. but i do know that i NEVER ever thought of myself as conventionally beautiful nor sexy. and only just recently did i ever even begin to accept how my looks differ from other people’s whom i admire. i’m hoping that the more a magazine will take a chance on a girl like me, the more a girl will have a frickin chance in hell to be UNIQUE, powerful, strong in her weaknesses, confident in her flaws. because that’s who i’m trying to become.

sexy is whatever you want it to be. don’t let cosmo tell you. don’t let vogue tell you. even your boyfriend or your best friends. the point is, it’s up to you. i’m gonna make up my own version as i go.

and for the record, i really was hoping one of the headlines would be “69 ways to 69″ but i guess it was a no go. honestly, i don’t think they could come up with that many. thank you guys once again for being a part of our family. love every one of ya.

hayley

– once again, i didn’t proofread ;////

Source: Livejournal

Published:17th April 2011

posted this just now on my tumblr:

“Went to the Jeremy Scott x adidas party last night. I’d like to quickly point out (then avert your eyes elsewhere) the fact that I have NEVER been to Coachella yet, as of last night, I’ve been to one of the after-parties. This is so backwards. I should be ashamed.
Anyways, I just wanted to say that I met some really cool people last night. People who were all so different from each other. People who were excited to get out and let go. It was nice to just be surrounded by complete strangers for the night. Sometimes, I think it’s good to do something out of your typical routine. I don’t usually leave the house at 10pm to drive 2 hours and stay out til 4am. Maybe I just like my bed too much? What I’m trying to say is… there are a million-bajillion people on this planet (that’s just an estimation) and we’ll never ALL know each other well. Most of us won’t meet at all. But when we step outside our inner circle and start leaving footprints in other places we have a lot more chances to make impact, to learn something brand new, to find out who we really are by seeing a part of us in a total stranger.

Don’t judge. Don’t stay inside all the time. Get out and let somebody know who you are.”

but i wanted to go just the tiniest bit further here with you guys…
my experience last night has so much to do with the song “Careful”. there is a big world out there and it’s made up of a ton of human beings living and breathing their way through every day. most of us, lost and confused and weird. but who cares? we have very little time to be judging and pointing and “protecting” ourselves just because we are afraid of people or experiences that are unfamiliar. the last thing i’m trying to say is that we should cut loose and run rampid in the streets in the name of “looove”. what i’m saying is, the person that i’m standing behind in line at starbucks has a story just like i’m do… and given the right moment, i could probably learn a thing or two from them. it’s easy to stay inside, shut your door, and say you’re fine with the life you have.. but try something different every once in a while just so you can say you took the risk of making someone feel loved.

edit; OH! i forgot to sign off – how rude

love you guys a lot,
hayley

Source: Livejournal

Published: 23rd May 2011

it’s sort of unbelievable how much can happen between these LJ posts…

i don’t say that in a negative way really. i’m just only starting to realize the time that’s passed now that i sit down to write you guys.

with all the off time and the sitting around at home i’ve really just felt afraid to be still. it’s hard to go from moving at a million miles a minute to stomping on the brakes. and now — THANK GOD — we’re getting ready to get a little busier. you might’ve heard but there will be a new song on the way pretty soon and that means, we’ll have some work to do! not to mention, rehearsals for summer shows will be here before i know it. i mean, i really have to keep reminding myself… it’s only a few months off! it should be a good thing right? balls!

i’ve been in LA for quite some time now.. while i’ve been out here, i’ve seen some great shows (A Day To Remember, The Swellers, Zach Galifianakis — ugh i can’t spell that! — Best Coast, Jon Brion, The Watkins Family Hour, and I think more but I can’t remember right now), went on a date at LACMA to see the history of fashion exhibit, and i haven’t eaten meat in months! who knows how long that will last though…. I mean, I can’t really complain. it’s been a lot of fun. you know what i think my problem is though? i think i have growing pains.

i always come back to this… to growing and changing and how it feels when the whole world already “knows” exactly who you are. they know your next step before you take it. they know your every reason for every thing. and hey, this is the life i wanted! honestly, i love the workload (how i miss it right now), the company (you guys), all the different places, and most of all the freedom to create. all i can say is, with all that’s on it’s way to us right now… and i really believe in it… i guess i feel like a different version of me is ready going to be taking it on. i mean, damn, i’ve had enough time right? and yes, i said it before, but i think the guys are there too. i don’t think i’m alone when i talk about how some screw has been tightening… or loosening.. in my head. maybe even some of you are there too? there is never a bad time to start over, in my opinion.

with all that being said.. i’m SO ready for new music to get out there. we’ve been talking about it since february. you’ve sort of heard one of the songs but i’m ready to hear what you think about more of them. i’m ready to see you guys face to face at shows. ready to care about what i look like a little (you know, quit looking like a scrub just cause i know i’m off)… which i guess means i can let myself go shopping.. yes? thank you.

anyways, what was the point of all of this? did you get it? i’m so excited for summer. let’s talk more soon. sooner than it took us to talk last time.

love you guys a lot,

hayley